Law of Attraction – In Action

The idle soul is un-idle again. It has been 2 months into my contract job, which I took up regardless of the trepidation of the many unknowns. (new job scope, never heard of company, 6 months of contract work which will bring me out of seeking a permanent job). In a way all turned out surprisingly well. I am in a place with good structure, mature and sensible processes, healthy working culture and down-to-earth people. I haven’t had much time to recite my affirmations and continue my daily reiki now that I have to rush to work, except for one which I adopted from Kryon’s teaching. “Today is a good day. Wonderful, positive benevolent outcomes are coming my way. My consciousness surpasses any challenges that may come. Good things lay before me.” I can recite it when I am alone in the lift, before I go out of the door or even in the toilet.

I am also keeping my emotions in check. In the older days I would think that this is THE JOB and feel exhilarated until challenges soon appear and slowly discover that the job and company wasn’t such a good one after all. Now I am taking it with a practical state of mind – just show up, live out each day as it comes and occasionally be grateful at the additional abundance, knowledge and connections that the new job brought me.

I still don’t know what will come down the road and I stop myself from thinking too much about it. There are challenges that I am facing now such as deadlines, overtime, and the time management involved as a working individual, which are reasonable but still challenging. I still knock out by the end of the day and also the first half of  Saturdays. But at least one daily affirmation at the start of the day still helps to frame the day. So on a practical level, I recommend it. Have a happy weekend people!

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Law of Attraction – Diligent Action

In my current job search, I applied the Law of Attraction differently. Though this time inconsistently and only at the beginning (the initial enthusiasm wore off). Unlike the previous job, I removed all visual details about how the office was going to be like. Instead, I did recite affirmations every day without fail. The thing about affirmations is that because I am so familiar with them, more than half the time I would be reading the words without cognizing, meaning no awareness of the content. I suspect it doesn’t do its job very well at these times. Then there are occasional days where I took the effort to take in the meaning of the words.

When I sent out applications to specific job ads, I also removed the anticipation for a phone call from it. And then, I got a contract job through a recruiter, which was what he had available under his belt and in the industry that I wanted. It was something I had never done before and the interview came and went. So in terms of the Law of Attraction I have been feeling dulled and apprehensive about what’s to come in the job and what’s unknown.

Sometimes I feel that a job in many ways resemble a relationship. No matter how much you try to find out about the qualities (work criteria and environment) of the other person, it isn’t until you commit to the relationship (start in the job) do you know if you are a good fit for the other person (job). Usually only after some months together do you realise the nuances of the other person (company culture) and the bad habits, and whether the shit disturbs you enough for you to want to leave or to tolerate it until changes happen. From experience, most changes that I truly desire do not happen fast enough. If the company is already in a bad shape to begin with i.e. lack of expertise, systems, resources and talent, it takes much longer for companies to improve work processes or conditions. And that is if they have a genuine commitment to do so in the first place. But for the most part they preoccupy themselves with day to day struggles and are blind to the big picture. So I am being reticent until I have immersed in the work itself. Strangely enough, a contract job paid me the highest renumeration compared to all my previous permanent jobs.

Unlike the Law of Attraction books and testimonials, it has pretty much been something I am still grappling with, so there are no “wow” stories here. But I hope it will mean something for those who are using it and also wondering if it works – you are not alone.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!

If you are in the midst of creating your New Year resolutions, you might want to take a look at your theme for the new year. I like to look at Christine Delorey‘s and Felicia Bender‘s numerology site for my personal year number which changes every year. In case you need to know how to calculate, add your birth day and birth month and then this year 2018 instead of the year which you are born. Hence if your birthday is 23rd July, add 2+3+7+2+0+1+8 = 23 = 2+3 = 5 personal year (reduce the total final digit number to a single digit).

May you gain clarity and a sense of purpose for your life direction.

How the Environment Influences an Introvert’s Creativity

As a child I had the blessing to have a room of my own and an understanding mom who by most part, left me alone to draw, daydream or nap. Often she would engage in cooking delicious meals and baking, leaving the house filled with the sounds of her activities. Once I withdrew into my room with the door closed, the silence was heavenly. It remained this way until adulthood. And then I got married, and moved in with his family.

I would not say that both homes are exact opposites of each other – very different perhaps. For one thing the television seems perpetually on and at a rather high decibel (at least to an introvert’s ears) and so are their talking voices. The home is smaller than my childhood’s and so even with the door closed I can hear the tv and conversations taking place outside within close proximity. And of course, the hubby who likes to blast open the room door every so often to “flit-about” and then go out again.

I must admit, I would like very much to blame my lack of writing output to my surroundings. The effect had been insidious and so gradual that as my mind went blank, so did my desires, urges, promptings and habit to journal. I wondered why and attributed it to perhaps change in interests. But today I got a full day back in my parents’ home and finally was able to get this out. So here’s a list of how-to-kill-an-introvert’s-creativity-fast (or the opposite of which is how the environment nurtures an introvert’s creativity); from personal experience of course:

Noise and Interruptions- 

This is the number one anathema for introverts trying to churn out creative works. Although some might enjoy working from a public cafe amidst some white noise, I am talking about the noise that grates your senses and makes your back prickle. It includes the obvious ones such as drilling, dogs barking, mahjong, and noisy next door neighbours. They are also frequently the ones that are out of our control. I would also like to highlight the less obvious yet devious ones such as poor sound proofing. You hear them at low levels – the sound of the television playing outside the room and the conversations, the sound of footsteps from the upstairs neighbour, some complaining going on outside that is maybe related to you. Or if you are sharing the living premises with roommates, then perhaps they might do their chores outside your room door.

On the surface it does seem very little – something you can choose to ignore since it doesn’t seem to disrupt much. The thing is, introverts have too much going on in their heads to accept any kind of noise and interruptions. As soon as they are conscious of something else outside of their head (ie. a human presence, negative energy), the flow of thoughts stop. Period. Yet, your body might have been maintaining a kind of peaceful energy prior that keeps you from realising the extent of the interruption. But when you try to pick up your thoughts it somehow feels disjointed. Some of my long posts have been created in one sitting, and once in a while when I happen to read them, the insights seemed like it came from another frame of mind.

Bright Light – 

It falls together with noise under the category of stimulation. I suggest a dim room with a lit candle. Draw the curtains in the daytime and switch off the ceiling lights at night. I find candle light gives off a comfortable amount of light that doesn’t vie with my computer monitor and calms the space. A dark room reduces the amount of distraction, especially if your room isn’t at all spanking neat. You might want to choose a study table light too; a light to shine focus on your task at hand.

Breaking Time into Short Periods – 

Ideally the best would be long periods of solitude. I am frequently transversing between two homes, and in between there are chores. The anxiety of breaking away from writing in order to meet a specific time can really cut creativity. It takes a disciplined mind and well-scheduled habits over time to avoid having this drag you down. And I am far from it.

Waking Up to an Alarm Clock – 

I guess this is a luxury that most people don’t have. If the body were allowed to wake up naturally from sleep, it has a higher chance of dream recall. Dreams make good fodder for journalling – and ideas.

Sitting Anywhere to Write – 

When you think of a freelance writer, you’d probably imagine this idyllic scene – the writer gets a burst of inspiration, and reaches out for her notebook that is always close by. She opens her Macbook and sits down by the steps of an art museum and starts typing away.

In reality I think this only works for short bursts of writing, and then what probably follows in a couple of hours is an achy back. In this case, think ergonomics, like a comfortable office chair. Don’t let the feeling of soreness distract you. Believe me, soon the feeling can override whatever ideas you have in your head.

I have placed a stronger emphasis on the home environment since all my writing is done there. The suggestions are mainly for introverts like me who are highly influenced by external stimuli. Some might also say that where there’s a will, there’s a way. But why make the elusive writing process harder for yourself? Perhaps making a few changes will help getting into the flow again. I hope for those whose brain suddenly went dry and are clueless right would find it helpful.

May your writing flow always.

A Drop-in for 2017

It’s been quite a while since the previous post. The idle soul hasn’t been that idle recently, what with mood swings and such, finding employment in less stellar economic times and preparing for a change of residence. I thought of my blog every now and then, and thought it had been a long while since I dropped in to write.

Towards the end of the year (2016), it always starts with the onset of winter days, the cool air that smells of ages past that drifts into your window, that reminds of lost days. And then Christmas comes, when the world seems to rush into a buying frenzy, while you’re at a standstill, not knowing what to do. Present exchanges among colleagues, while you’re unemployed. Large group meet-ups, while you feel like you drift alone. Then comes Chinese New Year, and you find that the year had already passed you by.

I have always been a seeker, trying to find what makes me tick so that I can capture the “ideal” job. I have read topics such as Astrology, Numerology, Enneagram, Myers-Briggs, Destiny Cards, Mayan Astrology, Psychic Readings, Handwriting Analysis, Face Reading, Bazi Profiling etc; just so that I can compile a list of my strengths and work it out from there. But I think I overestimate the endurance of human memories. No matter how much information I compile and think that I know about myself, each time I jump into a topic, the older ones get left behind. I also underestimate the wisdom contained in these studies – they have been giving me similar messages but I choose to ignore them. You hope that you can find a place in society, working productively in a day job but realise you are not meant to be a “fitter” in any way. Too restless with routine, too blind with details, too emotional and non-logical, too sensitive with dynamic environments.

When you stop finding excuses for your failures, that is all there is – an underlying sense of greyness, bleakness following behind your footsteps. I had been engrossed with the Myers-Briggs a second time recently. This time reading about my functional stacks in addition with my INFP profile, and the ideal careers that can go with it. Same-old, same-old. I probably need to work with who I already am and the characteristics that I keep denying aren’t me.

On a side note, I thought about going to Lynda Woolf for a reading again. (Bad habit of mine to turn to readers when I feel lost in my life) And when I googled her name, I suddenly saw my blog entry “My Experience with Psychic Readings” pop up in the first page and had a shock, since Google sorts its results by an algorithm that includes variables such relevance, quality content and page views. Now I am pretty amused by the stats, as to date that article alone has 24 page views and with no updates, has generated an average of 1 view every few days from search engines.

Chinese New Year is around the corner, therefore I will take the chance to wish all my readers a happy holiday.

Refuse Verbal Abuse

Today I was on the escalator up the train station and accidentally blocked someone who was going up with me. I had moved out of the way but then as he tried to maneuver himself out of the way he stepped into my path again. In the morning rush, it pissed him off and expressed it simply in my face, “F***.” I tried Steve Pavlina’s advice in his article, “Dealing with Difficult People” and pictured the “F***” as a present which I then refused to take with me. Strangely for the first time, it worked to reduce the effect on my mood for the rest of the day. Most of the time, such events upset me greatly and leave my thoughts replaying over and over again. If you have time, try a quick read.

Sunsets

Who wouldn’t be moved by a beautiful sunset? Apparently there are many, like my extroverted husband for example. His manner of appreciating sunsets is somewhat different. He might look at it for a while, maybe even take a photo on his iPhone, then return to whatever he was doing before. Seldom does he linger over it like I do, watching the nuances of sunlight change the colour scapes. Neither does it cause waves of emotion in him as it does for me.

I think beauty touches introverts to the core because we take time to feel it fully and process it. To me, sunsets contain the magic of each day – the painter God at play.

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